My chest crackles as I inhale magic
She says I don’t need it
I’m powerful enough
It’s not the power I love but the escape it brings
“Escape from me?” she asks
Escape from everything
I hand her the pipe, but she declines
I know she won’t take it
She’s already there
I breathe in again and run
It’s all behind me now
All except her
She won’t let me go too far
I love her for that
And despise myself
Her love makes me want to give it all up
Almost, but it’s never quite enough
I inhale again
We lie there, and she holds me like a cheating mother
I make promises I know I won’t keep
She plays along
Tomorrow will be different
We’ll run away to an island
I’ll rub her feet while she drinks mai tais
A beautiful dream
A Beautiful Violation 